“It is lonely, unknown, terrible.” Jennifer Lopez breaks silence on her divorce.

After months of rumors and speculation about the state of her marriage with Ben Affleck, Jennifer Lopez officially announced their divorce on August 20. The singer’s request alone on their second wedding anniversary. A few weeks later, the singer spoke to the magazine for the first time about her busy summer An interview this Wednesday, October 9.

And since August, J-Lo has had time to gain some much-needed perspective on her breakup. “I was thinking about that time in my life and I was like, “This is not what I thought it was going to be,” he said. “And then I said: “No, this is exactly where I needed to be to get where I want to go.”

And if the 55-year-old singer stated that she did not regret “for one second” the pain she felt during the divorce, her decision was not taken lightly and she does not feel any less suffering. “That’s not to say it didn’t wipe me out for good. It almost happened. But now, on the other hand, I’m like, this is exactly what I needed. (…) I should have learned two or three times before.” This is the second separation of the Benifer couple after the first divorce in 2005.

“Being in a relationship doesn’t define me”

After describing this turning point in her life as “lonely, unknown, scary”, Jennifer Lopez, however, admitted that she now appreciates the time she spends alone. “Now I get excited when I tell myself that I’m just going to be alone (…) Being in a relationship doesn’t define me.”

“I cannot look for happiness in others. I must have happiness within me. I used to say that I was a happy person, but I was always looking for something to make up for someone else,” he finally admitted. And at this point, he doesn’t seem ready to get back into a new relationship. “I’m not looking for anyone,” he concluded.