“I hated my body so much. I hated myself. Joyce Jonathan reveals she suffered from anorexia and bulimia for ten years.

His fans’ concerns turned out to be justified. A few years ago, Joyce Jonathan’s subscribers were worried about the radical weight loss of the singer with every photo she posted on social networks. If at that time she denied having health problems and assured that she felt comfortable in her own skin, today the 34-year-old artist reveals a completely different truth. “I had an eating disorder for ten years. I alternated between anorexia and bulimia and I’m not ashamed to talk about it anymore,” she admits in a video interview with the media. raw and aired on Thursday, January 25.

“I felt that other people’s views were changing”

It all started when he was 22 years old, after gaining five kilograms. “It was immediately visible on my cheeks and I felt a little heavy,” she recalls. “Then I was romantically disappointed by a guy who only liked super skinny girls, and I chalked it up to that. I said to myself. “If I was thin, maybe he would really like me.”

The event sparks her obsession with being thin and plunges her into a dieting spiral. First, he says he started using the Dukan method and that it “disturbed him a lot.” “In his book, we have the impression that he is a spiritual guide. There is a guru thing where if you follow what he says, you magically lose weight super fast. And it’s true, I lost weight in one month, ten kilograms,” he continues. A quick and dramatic physical transformation that restores her self-confidence, at least outwardly. “I felt that other people’s views, men’s views are changing. I got a lot of compliments: “Ah, that suits you very well”, “You are in good shape”, “Ah, your face”… Because, obviously, my face was much thinner. And I said to myself. “The key to happiness is being thin,” she adds.

“It was consuming my life”

Thomas Hollande’s ex-partner then talks about his daily routine, which suffers from extreme discipline. “I was obsessed with weight, the numbers on the scale. I was making lists of what I ate. I was very rarely present, especially at lunchtime. I knew it was unbearable. It was really eating away at my life, he admits, before giving an example of a recurring situation. I called to find out the menu for the day and to make sure that we would be able to remove the oil, butter, and change the shirts, so much that it depressed me. I went to the kitchen to check that they didn’t use butter and oil. It’s a level of insanity… It’s actually OCD.”

He reveals that his obsession has even encroached on his professional career in front of his audience. “I used to do gigs after eating and my heart was beating 10,000 hours. I was like, “I’m going to fall to the ground.” In my song I managed to stay almost under hypnosis to catch and when I left the stage I fell. I didn’t feel well at all,” she recalled. So much so that one day, after the crisis, the young woman found herself thinking about a funeral during a stormy flight. “I said to myself. “Well, if the plane crashes, I won’t need to go on a diet when I get back,” he says. And admitting. “It was a little sad to think that, but that’s how I felt.”

“I hated my body so much”

The “trigger” that finally saved him from his illness. Motherhood. “I know it’s not an option, I don’t want to say: get pregnant and everything will be fine. But I hated my body so much. “I hated myself for ten years,” she admits, “and when I got pregnant, it was the first time I was happy to gain weight.” And then, because I wanted to do something good for the child growing inside me.”

I hated myself for ten years and when I got pregnant it was the first time I was happy to grow up

Joyce Jonathan in an interview with “Brut”.

To fight against [son] demon,” says the singer-songwriter, who gave her “small challenges” that “helped heal.” For example, he called himself “not to change the decorations in the restaurant anymore”. The most difficult. “Not making myself throw up was the biggest challenge because I had the aftertaste of food. If I eat, I gain weight, and that’s how it is,” he admits.

the translator of I don’t know says she’s never told anyone about her EDs, not even her closest friends, who are “coming out today” at the same time as the rest of her community. “I never told myself it was a disease until I was cured of it. Perhaps this is the path to healing. It’s about admitting you’re sick,” she concludes.